Maybe it is happening due to my age and maybe due the my style of live. Who knows, but things are changing and they do that quite quickly. I was use to progressive changes, you know, those which you do not notice until you encounter something from your path which reminds you of it.
I am also having more often thoughts about that my time is limited. I mean, I knew that of course from early age, but it has been so far that I felt free to ignore it. There was so much time, in front of me, that I could spent it by doing nothing with my friend Jan. We never wanted to waste time, but we did so many things that often there was nothing left. We used to sit on small wall next to his house, our legs hanging down swinging.
Time, hm there is nothing like time, you know, right? Do you? It is all only on our mind, mostly thanks that we fill it with memories and plans. If we have not those we could just live happily without worrying about not having enough of it. Yes one can decide and live only in present, but for people from our society it is kind of impossible if you do not want to become isolated.
Isolation, what does it mean? Does it mean that you alone, like on isle? Or does it mean that you have time for your thoughts, for your creations and expressing what you feel? Isolation is feel it is not a status. One may feel isolated and in my understanding it is not a positive feel.
But you can be alone and enjoy it. Being alone feels positive in my mind. It is to be alone with your thoughts. Being able to forget about time or better say do not have a restriction which is marking, limiting your space. You do what you feel is important without that pressure that it has to be done in certain limits, that there is something else waiting for you, that you need to do the other thing. I believe that exactly this feel is what we call pressure of time. Something we translate into perception of not having enough time.
On other hand, once you creating something, like I do photographs, than is natural you like to share them with somebody. Not necessary in attempt to receive an opinion, but more from the basic need of sharing. You can’t imagine how realizing this fact make me more free. When I realize this is the only need I have I feel easy to create more, to search and look for next. I am not under pressure of delivering the images for certain purpose limited by time.
All this writing is a bit of unfocused I feel, but frankly, I do not mind too much. I am not very good in it, but I like it. I like it as much as discussion with interesting people, like discovery of new thoughts, new minds. I always feel rather terrible and sad when opportunity for such a sharing is dismissed by primitive coincidences or circumstances. Unfortunately this happen and happen rather too often (let’s make image about this —).