Dear friend,
in a last, almost three, weeks I have not written anything here. And I did that more or less wittingly. I wanted to see if there will be any change in amount of visitors and their reactions between time when I am active and when I am not. The result is kind of liberating. The result is: there is no change! I have received in average only 3-5% less visits and same amount of comments and emails as in times when I am very very active. This lead to assumption, that only activities, which brings more visitors and more activity on pages are activities leading to more exposure of the website between other parts of internet. That leads to more incoming links, more people talk about it and therefore more visitors coming and more reaction is created.

This of course require that the web has certain amount of pages, information. In short it has some level of content.

This has some connection to the topics which are running in my head in last weeks and especially in last days. I am currently in rather disillusion situation. I had some discussion with friends and my wife in last days and kind of discover my real me, me who is not cover by my own illusions about myself, but more the me how people see it. And I am down. Not sure what should I do. In any case this is too wake to talk in journal about. I am just trying to write about it here, but I feel already after first paragraph that I am going to wipe it :-(

Instead of writing I should do some actions, but currently my idealistic mind is depressed by facing the reality. And even I know, sometimes, what should I do I still do not do it. And, the worse, I have no idea. I guess everybody has this kind of downs, but personal experience and personal troubles are always closer ;-)

After a month not writing anything here, this is certainly not the best topic. But I can not help myself. In hope that these writings helped me to get out of it. As I see it know they can help me get out of my down temporarily, it can help me to get back a bit, but I certainly need to make some other actions to overcome my current situation.

Day after day a bringing changes. Previous paragraphs I wrote one and two days ago. Today is a new day. And I have received a letter from the gallery owner who represents me in Slovak Republic. My work is exhibit in the AURA gallery in Zilina for few last month and it seems, at least according to letter, getting some attention. Still no buyers, but even such a email helps.

Following month I am home for at least four weeks. After traveling in October over the whole world it is relaxing to know that I can have a bit of stable days. My plan is to make some changes in current project (Serene Mind) and bring it to the end. Try to push it in some venues and start action in new project, which I have in my mind rather long. Its realization requires studio or at least some kind of space where I can work with lights. You see, after few days of having head down, and two emails from friend I feel better. I should remember this for next down hill fall.