My troubles and worries are just joke.
The other day I was pitting myself, again. Seen all the things in dark, shaking and pressed by the stress I did create myself. This time, it is just too many things going on. It is a bit different than last, when I had those other feelings, feelings, which some identify as midlife crisis symptoms.
It occurs to me, today, how naive I have been with expectation, that my live should have some world wide reasons and influence. Often I feel that I need to put things right, that I just can’t let some things go the way, I believe is not right. Thinking how I will feel and how could I live with myself if I let them go.
Then, from pretty nowhere, I realized how other people felt in similar situations, in much more serious circumstances. Just imagine, you are part of situation in war, situation which can’t be overlooked. It is terrible and it is not in your power influence it. But you can talk about it, correct the consequences or explain better, but nobody listen or worse. You standing with your powerlessness in your head the rest of your life.
Where I go with my trivialities? My troubles and worries are just joke comparing to that.
3 Comments
JPH
Thu, 4. October , 2012Perspective.
I would attribute perspective to being a very, very big factor to me still being here today, as well as grounded, humbled, etc. Perspective has saved my life more than once.
I’ve never seriously thought about getting a tattoo, but when I have, if I could think of some kind of symbol to represent perspective, I would put it directly on my hand, so whenever I needed a good dose of it, all I had to do was look down at it.
richo
Thu, 4. October , 2012Perspective is good thing, but sometime I think, isn’t that not another way how to fool yourself? One can influence oneself in many many ways and it is not always clear to know when it is right and when wrong.
JPH
Thu, 4. October , 2012No, I don’t think so… not at all.
Which is why I say it has been that last bastion that has saved me more times than I can count… because I do agree, that we are our own worse enemies, because who better knows us better than ourselves? And how to lie, present things to us in just such a way that we will buy it, than ourselves?
Perspective is external, it does not lie, it is the truth, of the life, world, around us, that is NOT us… so, while we can bold face lie to ourselves and say this and that, and gobble it all up as gospel, even if it is all nothing more than crap… perspective, of us/ourselves, in the light of others/life/the world, outside of us – it can’t be anything else than it is. Sure, we can try to interpret and try to spin it to whatever way suits us, but it still doesn’t change the facts, and truth, one whit… and therefore, in the end, can’t fool us. We can fool ourselves, but even that has it’s limits, and when that external perspective is indisputable, that fooling is only briefly temporary at best.